Well, as my 30th fast approaches I have come to several conclusions about my life:
- For various reasons, my job with Cooperative is not for me.
- Relating to the above, I have decided to get back into education, learn some new skills, and get myself a proper career. My neighbour is a college tutor, and I had a chat with her about what I was interested in, also had a good chat with my girlfriend, and I've found a course for Accountancy with ICS Learning.
- As I have plenty of money at the moment, I'm going to go for this course, carry on working at the Cooperative (but reduced to my contracted hours). I'm getting a pay rise to the next Tier anyway, so it shouldn't affect my income too much. I've also spoken to my bank on ways to improve my credit rating (which is neutral) which has been very helpful.
- Things with my girlfriend have vastly improved after nine-months of lies and crap on her behalf. We've had a massive heart to heart a few weeks back, and she has said she will stop all this dishonesty and mind games as she doesn't want to lose me. Perhaps being the nice guy does work out in the long run, lol.
So in conclusion: relationship is back on track, bank is happy with me and helping to improve my credit rating, and I'm going to look for a career in something I actually enjoy, rather than just have a "job".
2012 has been a bad year, relationship-wise, too many deaths, and various other reasons. I am feeling much more optimistic for the future now though

Per aspera ad astra.
If you love, love without reservation.
If you fight, fight without fear.
Never start a fight, but always finish it.
La verità parla da sé.